CANCER OF THE MIND

by DEFACED

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1.
The Beginning 01:36
2.
Car Crash 03:29
lyrics
BUILDING UP ON ME THIS PRESSURE TO SUCCEED NO CAUSE FOR CONCERN NO REASON TO CRUSH THESE DREAMS BACKED INTO A CORNER THEY WONT LEAVE ME BE SO I SMILE AND NOD MY HEAD AGAIN THIS INNER RUSH OF ANXIETY LIKE A HEAD ON COLLISION MY LIFE IS A CAR CRASH AND I CAN'T TAKE IT NO MORE CAUSED ANOTHER DECISION NOW I'M FEELING THE WHIPLASH TOO MUCH FOR ME TO ENDURE LIKE A HEAD ON COLLISION MY LIFE IS A CAR CRASH AND I CAN'T TAKE IT NO MORE NOTHING LIKE YOU ENVISION NOW I'M FEELING THE WHIPLASH GOTTA PICK MYSELF UP OFF THE FLOOR SO I SHOW UP AND TWICE I'M PUSHED BACK DOWN SOUNDS ALL SO PETTY NOW BUT THE INNER CHILD IN ME STARTS TO DROWN INSTEAD OF HELPING YOU PUSHED ME OUT MADE IT WORSE BUT THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE ALL ABOUT MAYBE NOW I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME SO MUCH MORE THAN JUST MYSELF TO BLAME LIKE A HEAD ON COLLISION MY LIFE IS A CAR CRASH AND I CAN'T TAKE IT NO MORE CAUSED ANOTHER DECISION NOW I'M FEELING THE WHIPLASH TOO MUCH FOR ME TO ENDURE LIKE A HEAD ON COLLISION MY LIFE IS A CAR CRASH AND I CAN'T TAKE IT NO MORE NOTHING LIKE YOU ENVISION NOW I'M FEELING THE WHIPLASH GOTTA PICK MYSELF UP OFF THE FLOOR THIS PRESSURE TO SUCCEED WITH NO REASON TO CRUSH THESE DREAMS THEY JUST WON'T LEAVE ME BE INNER RUSH OF ANXIETY EVERY TIME I'M PUSHED BACK DOWN THE INNER CHILD IN ME STARTS TO DROWN BUT ONCE AGAIN YOU PUSH ME OUT BUT THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE ALL ABOUT I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME JUST MYSELF TO BLAME THIS PRESSUE TO SUCCEED WITH NO REASON TO CRUSH THESE DREAMS THEY JUST WON'T LEAVE ME BE THIS INNER RUSH OF ANXIETY EVERY TIME I'M PUSHED BACK DOWN THE INNER CHILD IN ME STARTS TO DROWN EVERY TIME I'M PUSHED BACK OUT BUT I FORGET THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE ALL ABOUT YEAH, YEAH LIKE A HEAD ON COLLISION MY LIFE IS A CAR CRASH I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME CAUSED ANOTHER DECISION NOW I'M FEELING THE WHIPLASH MORE THAN JUST MYSELF TO BLAME LIKE A HEAD ON COLLISION MY LIFE IS A CAR CRASH I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME NOTHING LIKE YOU ENVISION NOW I'M FEELING THE WHIPLASH MORE THAN JUST MYSELF TO BLAME.
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Met Your Match 03:16
lyrics
OH NO, HERE IT GOES AGAIN BACK TO THE DRAWING BOARD LIKE A WARN OUT TREND CHANGE THAT LOOK CHANGE THAT SOUND CHANGE EVERYTHING YOU ARE FROM THE GROUND UP YEAH FEEL THAT BEAT BREATH IN THE ROOM YEAH FEEL THAT HEAT THIS IS WHERE YOU BELONG, THAT MUCH IS TRUE BUT THE GAME IS RIGGED, YOU'RE SET TO LOSE I'D LIKE TO SEE YOU MAKE THIS WORK WITHOUT HAVING TO LIFT UP YOUR SHIRT WITHOUT THE NEED TO ALWAYS FLIRT WITHOUT THE NEED TO MAKE OTHERS HURT PEEL BACK THE LAYERS FOR THE BIG REVEAL IT'S BASED ON NOTHING BUT SEX APPEAL MAKE IT BASED ON TALENT OR NOTHING AT ALL WHAT GOES UP HAS GOT TO FALL YOU JUST MET YOUR MATCH, BITCH IT'S NOT LIVE OR LET LIVE SELL OUT JUST TO GET RICH 'CAUSE IT'S NOT GIVE OR GET, GIVE WAS THERE A TIME WHEN THE WORLD WASN'T MADE OF PLASTIC AND YOUR KIDS WEREN'T FED ON STATIC A TIME WHEN IT WASN'T ALL ABOUT BEING MISERABLE AND FILLED WITH DOUBT IT SEEMS YOU HAVE TO GET YOUR LEG OVER JUST TO GET A LEG UP BUT YOU WOULD SELL YOUR BODY AND YOUR SOUL JUST TO MAKE A QUICK BUCK THE POWERS THAT BE WILL FLOG THIS DEAD HORSE FOR EVERY DROP OF MONEY YOU PLAY RIGHT INTO THEIR HANDS WHILST YOUR FAMILY IS GOING HUNGRY OBLIVIOUS OF WHAT THEY'RE DOING TO YOU AND EVERYONE YOU KNOW BUT YOU HELPED BUILD THIS MACHINE, AND YOU CALL IT HOME YOU JUST MET YOUR MATCH, BITCH IT'S NOT LIVE OR LET LIVE SELL OUT JUST TO GET RICH 'CAUSE IT'S NOT GIVE OR GET, GIVE (X 2) I'M NOT YOUR CHARITY CASE GET THE HELL OUT OF MY FACE YOU ARE A TOTAL DISGRACE TO EVERYTHING THAT WE LOVE SELL MUSIC, NOT YOUR BODY REEMBODY EVERYBODY IT MIGHT SEEM YOUR VISION IS FOGGY BUT YOU ARE THE ANTIBODY TO THE VIRUS, ALL OF THIS COULD GO AWAY STEP UP TO BRING THEM DOWN TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW (X5) STEP UP TO BRING THEM DOWN TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW (X4) YOU JUST MET YOUR MATCH, BITCH TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW IT'S NOT LIVE OR LET LIVE TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW SELL OUT JUST TO GET RICH TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW 'CAUSE IT'S NOT GIVE OR GET, GIVE TAKE BACK THE POWER NOW.
4.
Cancer of the Mind 03:27
lyrics
THE BATTLE BEGINS WE LET IT BUILD UP THIS IS JUST ANOTHER HURDLE AND IT'S LEFT ME STUCK TRAPPED SOMEHWERE BETWEEN MY THOUGHTS AND PRIDE THIS CAN'T GO ON IT'S TIME TO STOP THE LIES I'M NOT OK IT'S TIME IT WAS SAID THIS TIME NEXT YEAR I COULD BE DEAD I FEEL STRETCHED BEYOND WHAT I CAN BECOME BUT I GET THIS LIFE IS JUST EASIER FOR SOME DONT BE AFRIAD I'TS TIME TO STAND UP DON'T BE ASHAMED THAT YOU WANT TO GIVE UP YOU'RE NOT ALONE WE ARE MANY NOT FEW THIS MIGHT BE AN EPIDEMIC BUT YOU WILL PULL THROUGH NOW YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING, 'IS THIS LIFE?' 'IS THIS ALL IT CAN BE?' BUT ONLY YOU CAN BATTLE YOUR DEMONS 'CAUSE THIS LIFE IS THE LOCK AND YOU ARE THE KEY THE HARDEST PART IS ADMITTING THAT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM FORCE THESE PILLS DOWN YOUR NECK I'M TOLD ITS THE BEST WAY FOR YOU TO SOLVE THEM AND ALL IT TAKES IS THE LITTLEST THING TO SET IT OFF I DON'T HAVE AN EXCUSE FOR THE WAY I FEEL BUT I DON'T NEED ONE, I KNOW THIS IS REAL I FELL STUPID BECAUSE I FEEL GUILTY I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE I FEEL LONELY I FEEL LONELY EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I'M NOT ALONE I CAN'T HELP THAT INSIDE IS A COMBAT ZONE CANCER OF THE MIND THAT'S WHAT HE CALLED IT AND YOU CAN ESCAPE IT IF YOU CAN AFFORD IT YOU CAN HAVE THE GOOD LUCK SWITCH FLICKED AGAIN ESCAPE REALITY FOR A LIFE OF ZEN DONT BE AFRIAD I'TS TIME TO STAND UP DON'T BE ASHAMED THAT YOU WANT TO GIVE UP YOU'RE NOT ALONE WE ARE MANY NOT FEW THIS MIGHT BE AN EPIDEMIC BUT YOU WILL PULL THROUGH NOW YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING, 'IS THIS LIFE?' 'IS THIS ALL IT CAN BE?' BUT ONLY YOU CAN BATTLE YOUR DEMONS 'CAUSE THIS LIFE IS THE LOCK AND YOU ARE THE KEY THE HARDEST PART IS ADMITTING THAT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM FORCE THESE PILLS DOWN YOUR NECK I'M TOLD ITS THE BEST WAY FOR YOU TO SOLVE THEM AND ALL IT TAKES IS THE LITTLEST THING TO SET IT OFF I DON'T HAVE AN EXCUSE FOR THE WAY I FEEL BUT I DON'T NEED ONE, I KNOW THIS IS REAL AND IF THE CLOCK COULD STOP TICKING JUST FOR A DAY I COULD GET MY BREATH BACK I COULD GET AWAY LIFE WOULDN'T BE THIS PANICED RACE AND I COULD GIVE MY LOVED ONES A LITTLE SPACE I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL BAD FOR WHAT I PUT THEM THROUGH BUT THEY STAND BY ME, BESIDE EVERYTHING I DO DESPITE THIS I CANT HELP MY ACTIONS DESPITE THIS I'VE NEVER FELT SATISFACTION DONT BE AFRIAD I'TS TIME TO STAND UP DON'T BE ASHAMED THAT YOU WANT TO GIVE UP YOU'RE NOT ALONE WE ARE MANY NOT FEW THIS MIGHT BE AN EPIDEMIC BUT YOU WILL PULL THROUGH NOW YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING, 'IS THIS LIFE?' 'IS THIS ALL IT CAN BE?' BUT ONLY YOU CAN BATTLE YOUR DEMONS 'CAUSE THIS LIFE IS THE LOCK AND YOU ARE THE KEY YOU ARE THE KEY... CANCER OF THE MIND (X4, THEN UNTIL END) THE HARDEST PART IS ADMITTING THAT YOU HAVE A PROBLEM FORCE THESE PILLS DOWN YOUR NECK I'M TOLD ITS THE BEST WAY FOR YOU TO SOLVE THEM AND ALL IT TAKES IS THE LITTLEST THING TO SET IT OFF I DON'T HAVE AN EXCUSE FOR THE WAY I FEEL BUT I DON'T NEED ONE, I KNOW THIS IS REAL.
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Best Friend (What It's Like) 03:23
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HEART BROKEN AND NUMB RIGHT NOW I'M TATTERED AND TORN SO SHAMELESSLY USED A LITTLE ROUGH AROUND THE EDGES RUSTED AND WORN WHY IS THIS SICKNESS INSIDE OF ME I'M TRAPPED IN A BOX THAT NO ONE ELSE CAN SEE HELD TOGETHER BY A SIMPLE MELODY WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO HEAR MY PLEA THE NOTES ON THE PAGE CONSTRUCTED FROM CALAMITY MY MINDS BARELY HELD TOGETHER BY TINY THREADS OF SANITY WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE BEING SECOND BEST ALL YOUR LIFE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE FEELS LIKE LIVING LIFE ON THE EDGE OF A KNIFE IT MUST BE NICE NO CONCERN, NO NEED FOR STRIFE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE CONSTANT DISTRESS, SOMETHING AIN'T RIGHT I AIN'T GONNA WAIT AND STICK AROUND 'TIL YOU'RE READY YOU ONLY WANNA KNOW ME WHEN IT SUITS I AIN'T SOMETHING YOU CAN DUST OFF THE SHELF I THINK WE NEED TO TAKE THIS BACK TO OUR ROOTS REPLACED AGAIN, A REPEATING TREND AND YOU'VE GOT THE NERVE TO CALL ME A FRIEND THE NOTES ON THE PAGE CONSTRUCTED FROM CALAMITY MY MINDS BARELY HELD TOGETHER BY TINY THREADS OF SANITY WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE BEING SECOND BEST ALL YOUR LIFE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE FEELS LIKE LIVING LIFE ON THE EDGE OF A KNIFE IT MUST BE NICE NO CONCERN, NO NEED FOR STRIFE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE CONSTANT DISTRESS, SOMETHING AIN'T RIGHT AND AFTER ALL THIS YOU MAKE ME CHOOSE MY FRIENDS A METAPHORICAL GUN AGAINST MY HEAD BUT TODAY'S THE DAY THAT ENDS READY FOR YOU TO MAKE AMENDS I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD LIE LIKE THIS BUT NOW I GUESS THAT IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW THIS IS BROKEN BEYOND REPAIR PLAYED LIKE A PUPPET AT YOUR EXPENSE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE BEING SECOND BEST ALL YOUR LIFE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE FEELS LIKE LIVING LIFE ON THE EDGE OF A KNIFE IT MUST BE NICE NO CONCERN, NO NEED FOR STRIFE WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE, WHAT IT'S LIKE CONSTANT DISTRESS, SOMETHING AINT RIGHT (X2) YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE BEING SECOND BEST ALL YOUR LIFE YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE FEELING THIS INSIDE YOU EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE... FUCK.
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Fake Reasons To Succeed 03:23
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EVERY DECEMBER THE SAME OLD SHIT, YOU'LL FOLLOW THE TREND BUY INTO THIS CONSUMERISM DO WHAT IT TAKES TO BLEND... IN 'COS THATS THE POINT OF THIS RIGHT TO SPEND MONEY YOU DON'T HAVE ON THINGS YOU DON'T NEED TO TRY AND OUT DO SOMEBODY YOU'VE NEVER MET THESE ARE FAKE REASONS TO SUCCEED BREAK THIS DOWN FOR ME BREAK IT DOWN! BREAK IT DOWN TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE NOW TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE COMMERCIALISM AND GREED ITS JUST FUCKING GREED TWISTED SOCIETY SET YOURSELF FREE PEOPLE FIGHT MORE THAN EVER WHEN THE POINT IS YOUR SUPPOSED TO STAY TOGETHER NOW TELL ME WHY YOU THINK THAT IS COINCIDENSE OR BUSINESS 11 MONTHS OF THE YEAR YOU WONT DO A THING TO SHOW EACH OTHER THAT YOU EVEN CARE TIME TO HAVE THE TRUTH LAID BARE BREAK THIS DOWN FOR ME BREAK IT DOEWN! BREAK IT DOWN TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE NOW TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE COMMERCIALISM AND GREED ITS JUST FUCKING GREED TWISTED SOCIETY SET YOURSELF FREE SO BREAK THIS DOWN FOR ME AND TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE COMMERSALISM AND GREED TWISTED SOCIETY SO BREAK THIS DOWN FOR ME SET YOURSELF FREE AND TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE SET YOURSELF FREE COMMERCIALISM AND GREED SET YOURSELF FREE TWISTED SOCIETY WELL GET THE FUCK UP! BREAK THIS DOWN FOR ME BREAK IT DOWN! BREAK IT DOWN TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE NOW TELL ME WHAT YOU SEE COMMERCIALISM AND GREED ITS JUST FUCKING GREED TWISTED SOCIETY.
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Elitism 03:25
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IT'S A SAD DAY WHEN A MAN YOUR AGE HAS TO ACT LIKE A FUCKING CHILD CLEARLY SOMETHING HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TO MAKE YOU FEEL SO EXILED FEEL THE NEED TO HAND OUT PAIN TO BATTLE WITH YOUR INSECURITIES FOR THE LOVE OF GOD LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND AT YOUR IMMATURITY THERE'S A WORD FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU B.U.L.L.Y FIND FUN IN PLAYING A GAME WITH THE MEANS TO TERRIFY I'LL BE THE BIGGER MAN THIS TIME HAVE YOUR SAY AND WALK AWAY YOU'LL HAVE YOU COMEUPPANCE SOON COME THE DAY YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE POWER YOU THINK YOU HOLD THE RIGHT CARDS DO WHATEVER TO ROB US BLIND DO WHATEVER IT TAKES EVERY TIME SHAKING HANDS WITH THE DEVIL THIS SHIT WILL GET YOU NOWHERE A DECISION HAS BEEN MADE WELL FUCK THAT SHIT IT'S UNFAIR I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS IS REAL NOT SOMETHING OFF THE T.V YOU CLUELESS FUCKING CHILD DEFINITION: UNTRUSTWORTHY I CAN ONLY BEGIN TO IMAGINE HOW LONELY YOU MUST BE LIVING YOUR LIFE BASED ON THE PURSUIT OF MONEY YOU'RE A THEIF, A LIAR AND AS LONG AS I LIVE I'LL LET IT BE KNOWN I'LL FORGET NEVER FORGIVE BREAK IT DOWN! I'LL FORGET NEVER FORGIVE (X2) YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE POWER YOU THINK YOU HOLD THE RIGHT CARDS DO WHATEVER TO ROB US BLIND DO WHATEVER IT TAKES EVERY TIME (X3)
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Mad Hatter 03:42
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MY FRIENDS DON'T WALK, THEY RUN SKINNY DIP IN RABBIT HOLES FOR FUN POPPING, POPPING BALLOONS WITH GUNS GETTING HIGH OFF HELIUM WE PAINT THE WHITE ROSES RED EACH SHADE FROM A DIFFERENT PERSON'S HEAD THIS DREAM, THIS DREAM IS A KILLER GETTING DRUNK WITH THE BLUE CATERPILLAR I'M PEELING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE 'CAUSE I REALLY HATE BEING SAFE THE NORMALS, THEY MAKE ME AFRAID THE CRAZIES, THEY MAKE ME FEEL SANE I'M NUTS, BABY, I'M MAD THE CRAZIEST FRIEND THAT YOU'VE EVER HAD YOU THINK I'M PSYCHO YOU THINK I'M GONE TELL THE PSYCHIATRIST SOMETHING IS WRONG OVER THE BEND ENTIRELY BONKERS YOU LIKE ME BEST WHEN I'M OFF MY ROCKER TELL YOU A SECRET I'M NOT ALARMED SO WHAT IF I'M CRAZY? THE BEST PEOPLE ARE ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE CRAZY ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE WHERE IS MY PRESCRIPTION? DOCTOR, DOCTOR PLEASE LISTEN MY BRAIN IS SCATTERED YOU CAN BE ALICE I'LL BE THE MAD HATTER I'M PEELING THE SKIN OFF MY FACE 'CAUSE I REALLY HATE BEING SAFE THE NORMALS, THEY MAKE ME AFRAID THE CRAZIES, THEY MAKE ME FEEL SANE I'M NUTS, BABY, I'M MAD THE CRAZIEST FRIEND THAT YOU'VE EVER HAD YOU THINK I'M PSYCHO YOU THINK I'M GONE TELL THE PSYCHIATRIST SOMETHING IS WRONG OVER THE BEND ENTIRELY BONKERS YOU LIKE ME BEST WHEN I'M OFF MY ROCKER TELL YOU A SECRET I'M NOT ALARMED SO WHAT IF I'M CRAZY? THE BEST PEOPLE ARE YOU THINK I'M CRAZY YEAH YOU THINK I'M GONE SO WHAT IF I'M CRAZY? ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE AND I THINK YOU'RE CRAZY TOO I KNOW YOU'RE GONE IT'S PROBABLY THE REASON THAT WE GET ALONG ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE CRAZY ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE (X2) I'M NUTS, BABY, I'M MAD THE CRAZIEST FRIEND THAT YOU'VE EVER HAD YOU THINK I'M PSYCHO YOU THINK I'M GONE TELL THE PSYCHIATRIST SOMETHING IS WRONG OVER THE BEND ENTIRELY BONKERS YOU LIKE ME BEST WHEN I'M OFF MY ROCKER TELL YOU A SECRET I'M NOT ALARMED SO WHAT IF I'M CRAZY? THE BEST PEOPLE ARE ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE CRAZY ALL THE BEST PEOPLE ARE (X2)

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7 tracks including 6 original songs and a cover of Melanie Martinez's Mad Hatter, written and recorded over the last 13 Months between the release of Defaced's first EP, 'Power, Wisdom Courage' and August 2018.
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Downloading from Bandcamp will provide you with all the tracks in the highest quality audio possible alongside all cover art, lyrics and exclusive artwork/ photos, only available here.
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On a personal level, the last year has brought the toughest of my life to date and as such this release is heavier, more aggressive and lyrically far deeper than anything I've previously released and this is due to pouring every ounce of myself, my thoughts and my feelings into this music. I hope, like I did, you enjoy it greatly and can take away something truly meaningful from it.
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Please support me as an artist by downloading and sharing the E.P with others as much as possible...
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for your support x
- Curtis Hammond

All music & Lyrics written, recorded and performed by Curtis Hammond
All Artwork by Curtis Hammond
All Mixing / Mastering by Jamie Brace
Female Vocal on 'Elitism' performed by Gemma Phillip

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released August 7, 2018

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Curtis Hammond England, UK

Curtis Hammond is a UK based multi-instrumentalist, vocalist, lyricist, producer, content creator and visual artist.
Making music under a number of different projects and in a number of different styles/ genres.

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